Breakdown

Sunday, 7 July 2019

Tbh, I've had a breakdown for the past few days. It is something that one could not explain. The feelings, the inferiority, those mixed feelings that no one can ever understand. I am just gonna be frank and blunt here as I know I am not the only who is suffering from such inner complications. At least you'll know that you're not alone in this. These breakdowns, these negative feelings is a no joke. It can either be a lot or reasons or no reason at all that it is just you and yourself.

A good friend once said, you deserve to have those feelings. You own it and it's yours to feel. No one else deserve is as much as you do. But don't let it take over your life negatively. Learn from it. You'll be stronger each time. 

It happens from time to time. You've never want it but it keeps coming back to you anyway. No sign and no advance alert, it just happened. I really am sorry for posting something so negative but in any other way I am trying to encourage other people to fight it along with me. I know I'm not the only one (Sam Smith song playing inside my head) going through this.

It has been hard but I am thankful to the support that I've gained from all around me. It really helps. Let me tell you this. It's okay to be down and under but make sure you come back stronger. I noticed that I feel much better after ranting and saying everything out loud instead of keeping it solely to myself. And the next day I would feel much better.

What I'd do?


I'd spent some time alone, just having a 'ME' time is enough. But sometime I'd love to have company too. It depends. But recently I prefer to play with my cats, went out for a drive, watch movies at the cinemas, bought myself my favourite coffee (I don't really drink coffee and prefer latte instead) and just simply went out for a fresh air.

From this point onwards I promise myself to be better and to do better. While I was at it, I looked outside and all around me. Taking notes of whatever possible so that I could learn and remind myself on so many grateful things that I've had in life. Reminiscing back all the reasons that I have and was given to live the life I am living right now.

That is all I have to write for now. Have a good day everyone. Take good care of yourself.

20 comments:

  1. Kak Sha tengah breakdown juga nie.. Tak pastilah kenapa kali ini emosi betul-betul tak stabil..
    Walaupun melalui kehidupan macam biasa.. cuba buat perkara yang disukai namun masih ada perasaan tergumpal di hati yang tak terlepas.. membaca pun dalam keadaan paksaan sekarang ini.. huhuhu..

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    1. I hope you'll be fine soon akak. In shaa Allah.

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  2. Hope everything is well, Ray :)

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    1. Thank you so much. I hope you are doing fine too. May Allah bless you ^^

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  3. Fatina pun tengah berada dalam situasi itu sekarang and I'm trying hard to push all this away. I hope everything is going to be fine on you, Ray :)

    Fatina Mudz || Amazing Distance

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    1. I do hope things will get better for you too. in shaa Allah. Aamiin. take care okay both physically and mentally. May Allah ease everything for you.

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  4. same here :'((( every night mmg perasaan mcm ni akn muncul. i just dont know what to do utk buang perasaan ni. setiap mlm nangis smpai tertidur.
    i hope everything will be ok for all of us >3

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  5. kena thinks positif selalu. Kena banyakkan Me Time. Semoga urusan Ray dipermudahkan. Aamiin...

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  6. harap semua nya akan ok nnti ya....

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  7. hope everything going well after this. doa banyak

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  8. Don't let the negative energy ruins your day :)

    Be happier!

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  9. same hereee. but then, bangkit balik and buat aktivit yang kita rasa boleh happykan diri .

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  10. It's okay to feel down because we're all humans who have feelings. I hope you have a nice rest and enjoy playing with your cat. Cats are seriously one of the healing creatures that would make you smile :)

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  11. last week i cried. yesterday i also cried. today i cried too. but it is all a part of the process. this time i got a new lesson which feelings are supposed to be felt. stop forcing it from been expressed. sadness, anger, worries and other feelings are not made for no purpose. we got this, ray =)

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  12. Keep strong ray. InsyaAllah ray kuat 💪

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  13. "jika tiada bahu untuk bersandar, masih ada lantai untuk bersujud..."

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  14. Lama tak datang sini. Blog Ray dah baru lagi. Have a good day too and take care. Be happy anyway anyhow.

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  15. Rabia pun skrg emosi tak stabil because nk exam dh
    Setiap kali nak exam otak bercelaru

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  16. Take care Ray.. don't stress ok

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