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    Ray

    A Casual and Malaysian Food Blogger since 2013. A postgraduate student who loves pastels. She blogs freely but mainly on food, personal, travel and lifestyle. Sometimes I write in Malay. For any inquiries, collaboration, review, advertorial, advertisement, do hit the contact button or email me at raydahpunye@gmail.com.

    Sometimes I forgot how to smile




    I've had enough of this. You were the one who decided to crawl into my life so I won't force you to stay.
    I tried.
    Stepping away but you came running back at me.
    Cried for a little help.
    Asking me this and that. I had fun and I was glad but now not anymore.
    I guess I was just a help button and option which activates when troubles come.
    After it's all gone, and that's it. You went away.
    Claiming I was the one, the one who started everything. I kept my distance.
    It was all for a reason. I refuse to hurt anymore.
    Maybe you're hurting because of me and so I should stop hurting you. I'll be gone for good.
    So please.
    Please stop coming to me ever again or else you'll get hurt.

    *Wrote this a few years ago. It's a cycle which keeps on happening and I am tired of it.





    I've had enough of this. You were the one who decided to crawl into my life so I won't force you to stay.
    I tried.
    Stepping away but you came running back at me.
    Cried for a little help.
    Asking me this and that. I had fun and I was glad but now not anymore.
    I guess I was just a help button and option which activates when troubles come.
    After it's all gone, and that's it. You went away.
    Claiming I was the one, the one who started everything. I kept my distance.
    It was all for a reason. I refuse to hurt anymore.
    Maybe you're hurting because of me and so I should stop hurting you. I'll be gone for good.
    So please.
    Please stop coming to me ever again or else you'll get hurt.

    *Wrote this a few years ago. It's a cycle which keeps on happening and I am tired of it.


    . Sunday, 31 March 2019 .

    30 comments

    1. sometimes it is okay to be sad, as a human,that is normal..hope for the best =)

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      1. thank you so much. yes it is. no doubt and we all deserve it.

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    2. keep strong Ray n keep smiling.

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      1. Thank you kak Reen sayang. Lamanya tak jmpeeee

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    3. Help button... Hm thats hit me.

      We cannot stop people, indeed. But we can stop ourselves from being hurting.

      It just miserable that we always have that delete history button and still allowing people to do the same.

      But I know we can do better as we are mature even more, day by day.

      But raydah, i wish nothing but hoping u have a reason to smile back, atleast.

      Love, Ariena.

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      1. Awwww that is so sweet of you. Things will get better but it takes a lot of time. Thank you so much for your sweet prayers. Back at you too Ariena ,🌸

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    4. Been facing the same thing and this just struck everything..

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      1. i feel you. we all feel the same thing. it's just that it's in a different time and situation

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      1. thank you mama. kdang2 all those words just keep flowing in.

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    6. its okay dear. smile when u feel like it.. its okay..

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      1. thank you akak. I will. May Allah bless you

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    7. smile, because it will change everything :)

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      1. I will. thank you cik jaja ^^
        May Allah bless you

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    8. Keep strong! InshaAllah, everything will be okay. :')

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      1. Aamiin. In shaa Allah. thank you so much.

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    9. nice. https://cikkentanglife.blogspot.com/ blogwalking here and done follow

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    10. Keep fighting and smile. It's the key to face them.

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    11. Just be positive & keep smiling.

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      1. in shaa Allah I will. thank you kak Ana

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    12. i understand. if you can't handle it alone, look for a support. may you'll feel better =)

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      1. aamiin aamiin aamiin. thank you so much my dear

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    13. huwaaaaaaa meh hug and kisses ngan iteee! Hmm.. If it's a cycle, maybe you have to stop and step back for a while, and find the reason why. Why it keep on 'cycling' and back to you... ~

      okay mende aku cakap ni hahaha. harap Ray faham ;)

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      1. I do understand that. thank you for making me feel a lot better. sometimes reading beautiful comments from everyone pun dah cukup to make me feel a lot better. I really do.

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